It’s been a while since I wrote one of these. The nature of progress. Not long ago my doctor found a testosterone deficiency and has treated me for that. I told him I was still feeling depressed but he instead normalized how I was feeling. Mistake on his part. Rule number 1. Listen to your patient!
I increased the dose of one of my medicines to a more therapeutic dosage. About a week later I can feel a difference. I am able to stop thinking about things easier than I could before and the day today even though with big inconveniences seemed to go smoother in my psyche anyway. I wanted to write this down as sort of a baseline incase I started feeling worse again I can come back and read this and read what I thought was going better. Depression is tricky to me. For me its not always easy to tell if my symptoms are depression symptoms or something else. For me it is best to listen to myself and trust what I think as doctors do not always do that. Over the years if I had listened to the doctor everytime they told me something I might be dead now. People telling me I am barking up the wrong tree when what I needed was to keep trying to find the reason for why I feel the way I do. I just thought of something and I lost it so. Concentration has definitely improved but that may continue to improve as well. So if you are a mental health warrior working on feeling better yourself, keep at it and if others are not listening to you listen to yourself and don’t give up.
Disclaimer: I am not recommending changing medication dosages without consulting your doctor.