“Made a decision to turn our lives and our will over to the care of god as we understand god to be.” my paraphrase
This has been hard and I know I am not alone in that. But what has made me think all these years that someone else can’t be trusted when so much of what happens with me is not in my control. I know the answer to that and you do too. And there have been varying degrees of trust like the time when my car broke down and my mechanic was in the car. We got it towed back to the shop and he fixed it and said, you weren’t even upset when your car broke down. I said, right because I knew you could fix it. He said, no its because you have faith. So I think I have had it and didn’t know it. And I think we all do even if we say we don’t. Think about the millions of variables the what ifs that could happen at any given time. There is no way to think about all of that at once. So I think we all trust the universe whether we say we do or not.
“Lord I know that people’s lives are not their own. It is not for them to direct their steps.” the prophet Jeremiah when Judah was taken into captivity, their houses burned and their cities destroyed and Jeremiah lost his children.