Je m’appelle ?sp Mr. Over-thinker. A very significant change occurred for me recently that I have been over-thinking about I think. I am running into the limits of my understanding again. Like I did with alcohol. My brain got confused when I tried to understand if I had a problem. I woke up one day and knew that I do. Doubt is quite the bitch though, quite the bitch. And I am learning that is where my reason is limited. And like a good post-deist I trust my reason implicitly to the exclusion of my intuition, gut, and even what my experience, especially what my experience will tell me. I have a long time though, I believe to decided if it is really real. In the meantime life goes on. But in my heart and a fairly good portion of my mind I know that it is real and true. Truth is a person to me anyway, not any kind of proposition. The other side is like it is too good to be true. Something that I pretty much have wanted my whole life but I did not know what it would be like if it ever occurred. Someone says this is a new beginning. Holy Shit!!! A new beginning? New beginning has been my fing middle name lately. Anyway, the path ahead for me is unknown but it has become a sweet path. I need to listen to my heart more and less of my head less, for sure. I told a client, trust yourself more than you trust anyone else’ opinion about you and what you should do. That works for me anyway, and given my past that is absolutely necessary for me. But here I struggle with it. It is about trusting myself I think. (Much for me comes for narcissistic abuse, still.) There is not much on the outside to confirm it. My heart says, my love is closer to me. That all of that hell was a factor in this result. If you are going through hell don’t give up until you get to the gifts on the other side. Yeah, it took a long time for me too. And we have no idea how many people we bless along the way, no idea, how many people see us fighting and don’t give up. And for me, the unseen things, that have carried me along. And I do not say that lightly or flippantly but with a deep sense of its veracity, far deep than before. Love, joy and peace to you all!