So I met this woman. It’s complicated. I always made fun of the people on facebook who said, its complicated. Now I am saying it. She has a boyfriend who is an abusive narcissist. I am her friend who has feelings for her, but its got to be just friend for now. She is very attractive and could find a boyfriend later on if she wants. Right now I want to focus on helping her get through what she has to get through.
You know writing is very therapeutic. I know I am jumping around. This is my blog 🙂
Write something on yours when you are not jumping around….anyway, lol. I have thought about journaling for years and haven’t done it. What I just wrote is a great example of the benefit. I have been confused with this woman. She has said goodbye a lot. I think she is afraid. Then I have feelings but we are just friends, confusing. So I have been in my head about what to do. What I want to do is forget about my feelings and be there for her. That is really what I want to do, whether or not she has any and all that stuff. She says she does and longs for me then she sounds take or leave it with me. Confusing.
So I think my way to deal with it is to say, I want to support her and my feelings don’t matter right now. If it is meant to be it will be. If not it won’t. I do believe that. So that’s my plan.